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[14 Apr 2005|03:39pm] |
i have movedddd!!....
amylw319.
if my new names are getting annoying, then dont add me.
bye
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[14 Apr 2005|02:50pm] |
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I am SOOOO bored. Woooowwwwww. Im going to do a new layout...or new colors, or something....I dont know yet.
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[14 Apr 2005|09:52am] |
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I stayed home from school today. I was a bit selfish and kissed david even though i was sick, and now im even sicker today. I hope i didnt give it to him, poor guy. i love him.
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[13 Apr 2005|09:36pm] |
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So I guess I was was wrong about those vibes. I keep forgetting not all guys are like kevin and roland. he is much different. anyway......byeeeee
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[12 Apr 2005|06:37pm] |
well Ive got about an hour before I go and see jasmine, so I guess Ill update. Im kind of sketchy about david. There is no doubt i love him. But im just worried. Like i told my friends earlier today, you just get these vibes when things arent going right. theres no reason to think it, its just like intuition. Like when you have plans and you have a feeling someones going to cancel, and they do. i feel like he might not really want to be with me. I was going to call him and say "maybe we shouldnt be together" and see his reaction, but then he would get the idea that (I) didnt want to be with HIM. which isnt the case. so instead im going to say something like "Im going to ask you a question, and I want you to be completely honest about it. Dont worry about hurting my feelings or anything, I just want the honest truth..." and then Ill ask him if he REALLY wants to be with me or if he is having second thoughts. I dont think he would lie especially if i tell him it aint gonna affect me (which it will if its bad but he dont have to know that). But hmm....these are some reasons i kinda feel sketchy.
1) on the weekends he doesnt call (not really a big deal though i know hes with jamie) but he never really did call on the weekends to begin with, so thats no change.
2) at school, i saw him quite a few times, and maybe it was all in my head, but whenever i saw him he seemed to be hiding his face, like avoiding me. when i did go up to him though he was all lovey. wonderful.
3) we walked home from school, and he was like "im going to go home because im hungry and tired" which the night before he kind of hinted he was coming over ("we have all day tomorrow"). so its KIND of SORT Of breaking plans. which really doesnt bother me...i just feel like maybe he doesnt like spending time with me. And he didnt stay home. he ended up going to the club and rock climbing.
4) today at school i asked him what he was doing after, and he said going to the club, and said he would call me. sooooo if he doesnt call, then ill call him.
but if I have to call him, then tomorrow and however long it takes, im not going to do anything to call him or get in touch with him. im not going to do any of the work, and see if he does. if he doesnt try to contact me for a few days, then i guess i know huh?
And me and ANG made a bet!!! whoever gets dumped first has to buy a joint for us hahaaa. shes going out with pokey...my ex. i can see what she sees in him. haaaa. funny.
But im thinking maybe hes acting the way he is, is because i wrote him a note like pouring my heart out when i was all emo....BUT i thought he likes that. he wrote me a WONDERFUL poem and is all romantic, so maybe he likes those things?? Ill post the poem later so you lovelies can read his amazement.
but i guess im gonna go. Ive spent almost a half an hour writing, so ill see jasmine in a bit and be all set and wont be bored. 1 THING I SWEAR im not going to do this time, is give up my friends. I made that mistake of revolviong my life around kevin, so when we broke up i was devastated and felt like i was starting brand new, like a newborn baby. I dont want that to happen with david. So i keep myself busy, and go out whenever my friends ask. Tonight i caught myself....Jasmine asked to hang out and i didnt want to, then i thought --- why dont i want to? ---- and i realized it was because i was waiting for davids call....then i stopped myself and said --- im not waiting around for a guy who might not call ---- so im meeting jasmine tonight!!!! yesssss. funnest person since the pot crew at seans. who i loved dearly!! Hmmmm. Im out now kiddoes. later
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